The month of July starts off so well: our wedding anniversary is June 30th, and then the twins' birthday is July 7th. And then the 11th comes around. This was the estimated due date of my second child, who died in the first trimester. We named "her" Grace. She would have turned six this year.
As hard as this day is, I know the 26th will be harder. That's the day I lost my fourth child, Ian. I still can't bring myself to talk about much of the details of that day. I'm dreading the next two weeks. And that's all I have to say about that.